hola
my anxiety is killing me and i need to go to the doctor for it because i cannot function, but other than that everything is just a shade from peachy. my boyfriend rules in every aspect of everything. for our one month “anniversary” he picked me flowers(!) and i find that very sweet of him seeing as i have never received flowers from anyone before. he and i really just enjoy each others company. thats all we ever do. we havent fought or had a disagreement yet and i have been spending almost every day with him for close to 3 months. so yeah i am a very happy girl and i believe he fits me very well. while the level of anxiety that i am constantly functioning at does bring my mood down and prevents me from enjoying life as much as i could (which is very very bad), i still am very happy to be able to call him my own.
The tattoo i got on my side about a week ago hurt terribly to get done - the worst one so far, it does however look awesome. hmmm yeah that and i smoke a lot of weed. not a lot by some standards but by my own standards alot. its wasting all my money and that stresses me out. i might try (who knows if i will succeed) to not smoke as much weed anymore. that would probably do me good. probably. maybe.
but yeah pretty much my life right now. im out of my job at the end of june and i dont have another one lined up afterwards so i will be sad from lack of moneys all summer. i have no idea what im going to do actually. i hope im lucky and something just kind of falls in to place job-wise.
